♥ iCyberlebrity- Deandrea xox Nechie Baby

“That dog don’t even know why he’s barking and howling at the moon. The moon don’t care. The moon is so far away, the dog can’t touch the moon! The dog can’t shut the moon off. He just sits there. Eventually, the dog will get tired of barking, and he, too, has to admire the moon as it shines. So just let the moon shine, DOG!!!”

-Clifford “T.I.” Harris

It annoys me to have to blog on topics such as these but sometimes I just feel that certain people are sleep & need to wake up lol! Obviously the concept of blogging is to share your own views/opinions but when your views/opinions attack those you don’t know anything about or they lack credible evidence, then you’re basically wasting cyberspace with miscellaneous ramblings.. NOT BLOGGING. The only person you embarrass when you do that is you. It’s hilarious when people pick on the unsuspecting then when the light is finally shone, they opt to take the “professional” road or claim that the one they’ve been attacking isn’t who they were making references to at all. You let bits and pieces of truth seep out with every word you write. You say you “appear to be perfect to the uninformed”?!! Wow! But thats not true honey I’m sorry to be the one to tell you lol! But even if it were, most EVERYONE is INFORMED so we know better. Keep trying lol! If to know you was to love you then people wouldn’t be so willing to spill on how big of a fraud you are. Just keep it real! We’re all from Mississippi and NONE of us grew up carrying Hermes briefcases to class or driving Bentleys! So if you’re normal no one will hold it against you lol. Its enough Chanel, Dior, & Louboutins out here for EVERYBODY! Who died made you the supreme authority on who can purchase designer things & why does it upset you so?! WHY?!! This sh*t is just stupid!.. yet hilarious at the same time lmfao! I mean when you leave this world, you can’t take NONE of it with you(no matter how you got it), so surely there are more important things you can be focusing on!

As for the GROUPIE! You are sad sweetheart. Frankly I don’t feel like you should be addressed as you are not the kind of person my sister or I would ever give the time of day to but it is imperative I inform you that you obviously have a very serious problem. I truly believe that you are mentally handicapped because you remind me of an obsessed psycho on some LifeTime movie! You are mesmerized by those who ARE popular/glamorous or those who “APPEAR to be that way to the uninformed” lol. Probably because everything about you is ordinary. You could have at the very least had some “sneak” about your deeds. Neither party would have been the wiser! But my aren’t you the bold one! You’re commenting on walls AND blogs so that the public can see it so did you really think no one would ever find out?! I’ve seen some pretty unbelievable things in my time but when my sister showed me the kind of messages/comments you’d send to her dissing this woman out, yet we’d hear about you also puckering your lips to her ass every opportunity you got, I was so shocked that it was a MUST I screenprint the few messages that Ta did keep lying around so that you may be exposed for the two-faced phony you are! Surely you didn’t realize that you’ve been building a case against yourself ever since we met you at probate! I mean even then you had too much to say! Ta being who she is and me being who I am, we’re looking out of the corner of our eyes at you the whole time because it was amazing how a simple question/simple answer convo that we quickly dismissed remained your topic of focus the entire night. Then you started & continued to send way too many messages/comments & we dont even know you like that! Then turns out this woman doesn’t know you like that either?? Tsk tsk.. Some people just don’t have ANY shame(shakes my head)! So yeah it was your turn too! The best quality one can acquire is to learn how to use their ears twice as much as their mouth. So sorry but the joke was on you haha! Seek professional help.

In closing, I say too both of you 30somethings: GROW UP! You’re too old for this. & if you’re getting paid or getting college degrees then good for you because whenever you get done talking, these stacks will still be piling up & you’ll still be wasting your time watching things happen instead of making things happen! Oh yeah, Obama for President!!

What do you get when you put two of your favorite myspace resource sites together? BOOOOOOOMMMMM BABYYYY!! So turn up your Speaker-Boxx its another AeroStarz(haha) production: Speaker-Boxx.com by Deandrea(iRockstarz) & Jezurae(Aerocharm)!

Ok so my girl Jez and I decided to run a site together and we’re absolutely ECSTATIC about it!! This is going to be a total win for you guys! She’s amazingly talented and everyone, including me, has loved her sites since like.. forever! Im newer to this than she is but people have always adored my websites as well. Came to find out that she loved mine too so we figured a collaboration between the two of us would totally psych our sites’ fans! We are EXTREEEEEMELY excited about SpeakerBoxx and can already see it becoming our latest obsession.

Initially I only wanted to run 1 website because I came to find out it was too hard to run 2 when I had Amazinspace & Quotegloss. Actually that was the best decision I could have made because I started anew and totally dedicated myself to iRockstarz. Im still amazed at how fast my visitors and my money shot up! Alot of times I wanted to go do other stuff but Jez would remind me how important it is to stick in there for awhile. Now I’m confident enough to try 2 again because I realized that in the beginning I was just really lazy.

Anyways Jez is my kinda people. We’d held a few small conversations before throughout the last 2 years but this year we really got to know each other talking almost everyday and staying up late on AIM. She’s WAAAAYY cooler, crazier, funnier and real than I imagined she might be. We have like the same sarcastic sense of humor and we favor the same topics of conversation. Also we respect each other’s opinion because we’re always honest when giving our point of view on random issues. I mean hey, nobody likes a “yes-girl”.

She had been thinking of opening a new site and I’d told her before that if ever she needed someone to run one with just let me know cause I’d be happy to work with her and she said ok cool =]! So anyways she disappeared from the net for awhile after a laptop crash and etcetera etcetera. But we’d talk everytime she would appear on. Then she says during one of those random appearances “we should go ahead and run a site together and see how it goes”. Well of course i totally pounced on that statement lol! Who’s gonna turn down the chance to work with someone as motivated and talented as Jez? I mean, we just get along so great and we know that a collabo like ours is gonna explode! So we started trying to brainstorm on site names but we couldnt come up with ANYTHING that popped like iRockstarz or Aerocharm does.

So after awhile we just stopped talking about site names then a few weeks later the perfect one came to me. When I pitched speaker-boxx.com to her it was a “hell yeah” moment lol! So we bought the domain on May 8th.

Speaker-Boxx.com is OUR new site! Brainchild of the BOTH of us. This is no Beyonce featuring Destiny’s Child lmfao! That means it’s not mostly mine with her help or mostly hers with my help. Its just as much mine as it is hers and vice versa. We both have spent and will spend our money and time on it. It’s set to open Sunday June 1st but that might be subject to change. We’ve already been making content for it and are just hoping that we can keep that date.

So ARENTCHA EXCITEDDDD!!! Duude you guys are SO gonna love this! Leave your thoughts and comments!

This morning(like 4 hours ago) we found my uncle in our bathroom dead.  It was like a scene from a HORROR movie!  He had his pants down around his ankles like he had been peeing & he was slumped over down the side of the toilet with blood everywhere.  Obviously I wasn’t going to take pictures of him but here’s a picture of where he was after my sister & her husband cleaned up:

That spot where the paint has been rubbed off the wall is where his head was.  So try to imagine a frail man sprawled over the side of that toilet with blood all over the rugs/floor, sink & toilet seat.  My mom discovered him.  She had just walked up to the front to tell me to take some cold medicine because she said she heard me coughing all night.  So I went in the kitchen to get my medicine and came back & sat down at my desk & she went back in the back.  She knocked at the front bathroom door & said “Hey bro, are you alright in there?”  Right then something flashed through my mind like he’s probably dead.  Then she pushed the door open & I heard her scream.  I already knew what was up.  So I got up from the computer and ran back there and that was the most GRUESOME scene I had ever witnessed.  My mom was freaking out & she had her phone in her hand so I grabbed it and called 911. 

He was diagnosed with cancer in December & had lost alot of weight between then and now.  He was only 45 years old but he was a smoker and had been one since he was 10 so that’s how he got it.   Just Tuesday March 4, we took him to Jackson to have surgery but they didn’t do it.  Instead they gave him 6 months to live.  Needless to say it was more like 6 DAYS!!!  7 to be exact.  I’m glad it’s over but I’m sad because it seems like he died alone.  He was a real cool quiet dude but he didn’t have a wife/girlfriend and his 2 kids haven’t been to see him since he came to stay with us in December.  That’s why my mom ended up having to let him stay but he wasn’t cripled or anything.  He did everything by himself.  I don’t think I can be here by myself & I DEFINITELY can’t use that bathroom anymore!

I didn’t mean to resume blogging on such a sad note but this is it.  I guess we’re going to have his funeral Saturday.  Mmm k.

I am so happy with how iRockstarz is going..  I know you’re rolling your eyes and saying “That’s all she talks about now!”  Until I get it where I want it I probably won’t be checking in here as much but it’s been a good minute since I’ve written so this is what’s up.  Traffic picked up on iRockstarz quickly and I see it going nowhere but up!  My money has also gone up more.  I’m not going to do pop-ups ads I don’t think.  I mean it’s not like I need the money and they even used to annoy me so I might just do us all a favor & leave them off.  I’m loving everything though & I think that so far everything looks great!  I’m really proud of myself for sticking with it like I said I was going to.  I update every day.  Of course I’ll skip some days in the future but for now, wow!  I don’t even recognize myself.  I think the whole “defining myself” process is going to work out just fine.  Another thing I’m proud of is being self taught and becoming pretty good in so little time.  Everything I didn’t learn through trial and error, I learned by reading tutorials.  I still have ALOT to learn and I haven’t even nearby touched the goals I’m reaching for but if I keep at it like I am, I see nothing but good things happening.

To other site owners:  If this is what you do for a living, treat it accordingly.  If not then just keep playing with it like I used to do before I decided to get serious.  Also don’t be afraid to read tutorials and move away from the norm!  There is nothing wrong with trying to learn more about your craft.  Also you will appreciate it all more if you do.  I’ve learned alot of quick techniques that help me avoid wasting time.  Next, stop comparing your work to other people’s.  Get on your own level.  The sooner you do that, the less stressed you will be.  You can’t expect to be as good as alot of these people if you’re not taking the time out to learn new stuff.  Get out of 2006, it’s 2008!  Keep your content fresh.  Hey it’s working for me!  Now why didn’t I think of that sooner…  Oh yeah, & stop getting people to help you.  If you can’t update your own sites, you should consider closing them.  Victory is just so much sweeter when you know you’ve done it alone.  Go big or go home!

Okay now I have a new prediction: Now that I’ve closed my websites & decided to run only one, let’s see who copies me.  I’m willing to put money on the fact that alot of girl(s) are about to close their sites too now and only run 1 or 2.  I’m still seeing alot of biting  & attempts to compete.  Some of it other people see and they write me about it.  I think it’s totally pathetic(sighs).  I’ve just lost all respect, as I somehow expected more…  Lately I really don’t even want to affiliate with other sites anymore either.  I’m seriously thinking about deleting them all[give or take 5].  It’s not like it’s really benefiting ME.  I don’t know though.  I’m just saying…

It’s official…  I just closed Amazinspace Hold on give me a moment:  WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!!!! 

OMG you guys!  I feel so naked!  I don’t have my security blanket anymore(sniffles).  I’m sort of freaking out right now because I don’t deal with change too well.  I’m a faithful person to the things/people I love.  I was so nervous when I logged on to my cPanel to terminate the account.  Like really!  I had all sorts of thoughts running through my head.  & I had to psych myself up to do it.  I convinced myself that I could go ahead and close it because all of the important stuff that I wanted to keep is already on iRockstarz.  There are still a few glitters and layouts that I’m keeping but everything else is trashworthy.  The sucky stuff was basically stuff that I’d made when I first opened my site back in Oct. 06′ and that are SO not cute anymore!  They definitely weren’t going  to touch my new site so to the internet graveyard they go.  I don’t know why I didn’t get rid of them sooner. More than likely I won’t be updating iRockstarz again until next week some time because I totally have to do my work.  It’s not even “put-offable” anymore.  See how I make up words?  Lol!  I said that I was going to stop this week so I could do my work but I couldn’t help it.  Basically I feel like I have something to prove to myself with iRockstarz.  If you don’t define yourself FOR yourself, you’ll be crunched into other people’s fantasies of you and eaten alive.  I can’t quit because for the first time in my life I need to stick to something.  I won’t get a real job.  I can’t!  I’ve learned enough about myself to know that I can’t follow.  So I’m sticking with this until I get tired of it. Bye Amazinspace I’ll love you forever  You helped me keep my sanity when things/people drove me crazy.  Sighs…

I’ve been really pressed for time lately but I found a couple of hours to throw together a new layout.  I needed to take off the sites I’m closing and also put this one on it since I never did.  As always I love it!  I really haven’t taken alot of pictures lately so I used the one from the last layout.  I might change it but the colors I had on match the layout :]

Here’s a shot of it: 

I decided to recode it.  It’s ALOT simpler than the coding I used on all of my previous layouts.  I also image mapped it as one large image instead of slicing it into multiple images.  I usually only image map my websites.  I don’t know why I never thought to do my myspace layouts like that.  I’ve always had an “updates” section but this time in addition to my personal updates, I’m going to also be posting every single update for here & iRockstarz.  The reason I’m doing it this way is to make my life simpler.  I’m deleting my Myspaces for Amazinspace/Quotegloss/iRockstarz and am just going to use my personal myspace for everything.  That way when I update, I don’t have to keep logging in & out of different accounts to post bulletins.  I can just do it from one.  I feel really good about minimizing all this “extra” & as a result I feel more productive.  Happy even lol!  Like a weight has been lifted.  I guess I’ll close Amazinspace by the end of the week and finish fixing this site up soon too.  Well enjoy the new lay as much as I plan to!  Click here to go check it out! <3

Just a quick post to say I opened iRockstarz.com on the 22nd.  For those of you that have been following, you know that is my new myspace graphic resource site.

Here’s what it looks like:

I just think it’s the cutest thing ever lol.

 Why’d I name it iRockstarz?  It’s for Internet Rockstarz.  Awhile after I got my iPhone I thought it would be cute to name it this when another name, which I don’t even remember anymore, was taken.  I named it something characteristic of me since I’m always somewhere on the Internet and alot of people know me.  I felt that alot of people would be able to relate to it since everyone thinks they’re a rockstar lol.  Thats also the reason behind the name of this site iCyberlebrity.  Instead of “celebrity”, a cyberlebrity is an internet celebrity.  Well Cyberlebrity.com was taken and I was devastated!  Don’t you hate when you pick the perfect site name and it’s taken?  Well you know what?  I slapped an “i” in front of it & liked it even better so here you have it lol!Anyway, so far I’ve made a good amount of stuff that I’m randomly adding.   I even made my own clear fill to use on top of my glitters and I never make fills lol.  More than likely never will again.  But I love it more than the other clear ones that I’ve picked up from different sites so I’ve been going crazy with it.

Here are some examples of the quote glitters I made:

You guys should definitely check them out!

Since forever, I’ve kept a list of quotes/sayings on my computer and random notepads around my house that I’d never seen anyone else use.  I make up alot of them myself and have even seen many that I’ve made up become the “favorites” of other sites which is flattering lol.  No one knows who makes alot of this stuff up we just use them.  So in addition to the overused ones, of which I still love, I’m going to be bringing a little something different than what you’ve heard/seen before.  I think the minute I slack up is the minute I’ll have came down off of my motivational high so I’ve been sticking in there.  Lately it seems like visitors have been picking up at Amazinspace though…  :/  Oh well, too bad lol.  I think I made the best decision when I decided to only run one site.  I should definitely get out this weekend though.  No better yet, I should definitely eat something.  Lately I’ve considered meals interruptions lol!  So much to do, so little time…  Have fun at the site!

My everyday life it’s pretty peaceful and even on the Internet for that matter.  But every now and then I have to do a routine “check”.  Every time I do something, someone else does it.  Sure I get mad but even with the temper I have, I find a way to calm down about it and not say anything, which is no easy feat for me since I’ve always been hot headed.  Then the person that models you is usually the same person who claims they hate to be modeled!  Or the same person who is overly dramatic has the nerve to call you dramafied lol.  How insulting lol!  Most times I take it as a compliment.  It’s almost cute, until they become perfect clones.  All my life, me and my sister Ta were treated like princesses and were role models to girls younger than us.  I was the smart one who could sing/dance and Ta was the crazy “cutie with a booty” who danced even better lol.  We always looked up to each other and even though my mom didn’t let her do HALF the stuff she let me do, she was definitely not anybody’s shadow.  We know what it feels like to be the center of attention… with haters on the side.

Just recently my sister Ta had a female write a blog about her, out of nowhere lol.  Well if this chick’s 30+ years of life is as glamorous as she claims, either Ta(22) was doing something TOTALLY right or this lifestyle the chick tries to portray isn’t that accurate because there is no way she should have found time to hate surf if her life was so fab.  But here’s the funny thing, and I’m noticing this is becoming a pattern with other haters as well: They start drama with unsuspecting targets who aren’t even thinking about them- sometimes never even HEARD of them, then as soon as you get confrontational, they start saying that you are jealous or hating on them.  EXCUUUUSE me?!  If I’m not mistaken, didn’t this female sit up and write a blog about a girl who didn’t even know her?

In my case, someone came into my JTV chat making smart comments and the username they went by sounded familiar.  They made a few snide remarks, nothing too serious though, but I remained polite in hopes that they would give themselves away.  I asked her/him what the username meant and they rudely told me to look it up.  So guess what: I did.  I google searched this username and it was the same name that this girl’s boyfriend uses everywhere.  Either it was her, or her boyfriend is an immature drama queen too.  Yeah I bet they didn’t know I found that out.  Even after I found out I still didn’t say anything to them nor have I ever gone into their chats.  I could be wrong but I don’t think it was a coincidence that i got led to a chick I really don’t get along with.  Yet she’s quick to call other people “dramafied” and preach about how much she hates drama?  Please.

I have to know what is it that makes one so intimidated by another if not insecurity.  I’ve never had the luxury of being a hater because my friends and I were always popular.  Everyone who actually got to know us loved us and realized we weren’t at all like they thought we were.  Everyone else were haters, especially the older girls.  So we’re used to it lol.  We go by the Katt Williams motto, “Ladies if you got 14 women hating on you, you need to figure out how the fcuk to get to 16 before the summer get here.”  Oh yeah and the Deandrea Wright motto “I’m to busy being hated to be hating!”  The way I feel is I’m real and if you can’t appreciate that then you’re not.  Point blank.  Why would I get mad when I’m happy with myself?  I have everything the next person does and probably more, not that materialistic things define us.  If the natural reaction is to hate and be jealous then why not opt for the hard way out and NOT be?  Sometimes the females who are hating actually do have a little going for themselves so then I can only conclude that they feel intimidated or threatened.  Insecure!

So surely you guys know from my previous blogs I talked about how motivated I am now to get money and get serious with my sites.  I knew right when I published that thought, someone else was going to get “motivated”.  Well okay lol.  Glad you’re suddenly feeling the juice.   Oh yeah and tell your personal ass kisser she’s really good at her job but she should probably go get her mouth checked for that.  :X  I can see her lips puckering from here lol.  She also needs to look up the definition of “hater”.

At first I thought it was JUST black girls, which for the most part is truthful and I can say that because I’m black and have been on the receiving end of hate many times from other black girls.  But now I realize it’s ALL GIRLS!!  Black girls more than any others but it’s just GIRLS period!  I don’t have to see or talk to anyone I don’t want to so if we’re cool, fine.  If not, I won’t lose any sleep lol.  Everyone is not going to like everything you do.  Unfortunate, but true.  For everyone who thinks you’re a rockstar it’s gonna be someone else giving you the thumbs down, most times just for the hell of it.  Just run with it and keep being you because nobody can be you like you can.  If you’re hot be hot.  If you’re not then work on that personality… ALOT lol!  & if you’re a hater, feel free to hate on me!  I love you for it and when you finally calm down I’ll still be chilling.  Holla at me when you grow up and cure your psychotic episodes.  You might be pretty cool underneath it all.

I mean hey, can’t we all just get along?  LMFAO!!  

Yaaaay!  Can we say: “BEST iPHONE UPDATE YET”?  We can now send texts to multiple recipients and it’s about freakin time!  I totally hated having to type the exact same text that I had sent to one friend all over again to the other.  It also vexed me as to why a phone this advanced would be missing something so standard.  Another great thing about this update is that we can rearrange the icons on our home screen and create webclips/icons for our favorites sites.  My iPhone was hacked before this update so my screen was already customized but really I could have done without it.  I mean the only thing I loved about it was using my own songs as ringtones instead of paying for them all over again on iTunes.  I also liked playing Snake and Solitaire with just a touch of the icon but on the downside, the hack(iFuntastic) ruined my visual voicemail and even restoring it back to factory settings didn’t fix it.  I just discovered a box full of voicemails upon installing this 1.1.3 update that I didn’t even know I had gotten!  They had been backing up since I hacked my phone.  My voicemail isn’t visual anymore, it’s just voicemail but whatev.  I’ll fix it.

In other updates, Maps app has been enhanced so that we can automatically find the locations we’re looking for.  I played around with it and it’s definitely a step up.  Another goodie from this update is that we can watch movies right from our iPhones that we rent from iTunes Movie Rentals, which is also new.  My only use for iTunes Movie Rentals on my iPhone will be if I’m flying or riding long distances.  There’s no need to watch them from my iPhone if I’m home but I will definitely be watching them from my iMac.

Now the only thing they need to do is make it so that we can set the mp3s that we already own as ringtones.  It’s so effin stupid that they make us pay for the song, and pay again to convert it into a measley 30 second ringtone!  Now if they would just handle that, we wouldn’t have much of a need to hack our phones now would we?  I guess Apple is trying to eliminate the middle man(the hackers) lol.  But they keep skipping the most sought after update there is!  I still love it though.

 I cant stress this enough, but if you dont have an iPhone what are you talking on!?  Your phone sucks!  No FREAK that..  You don’t even own a phone!  Or maybe you do own a phone and this should be called something more spectacular lol!  Everytime I see anything other than the iPhone I feel like I’m watching a 90’s gangster movie where they had those big black cellys with the long antenna..  NO SERIOUSLY.  :I

Oh wait, wait, wait!  Did you guys see the new MacBook Air?!  I mean dude am I glad I didn’t purchase that laptop right off because I knew that something alot hotter would drop if I did and I was right!  I watched the MacWorld 2008 Keynote and all I can say is DAYUUUUUM!  I gotta have one.  I’m willing to bet Lindsay is having a cybergasm right now lol!  

Here are a few pics of the MacBook Air from Apple.com:

 Oh yeah!

Just a quick blog for the sake of continuity lol!  I ALWAYS have something to write about, it’s just finding those free moments to write it.  Lately I’ve been working on iRockstarz.  The site is done, it’s just a matter of editing, remaking, or trashing the graphics from Amazinspace and Quotegloss.  I feel pretty good about closing those two sites.  I mean they’re my babies, especially Amazinspace, but I think it’ll be better this way.  The layout for iRockstarz is HOT!!  Everytime I do a new layout, I say it’s my favorite and this time was no different!  I mean it’s super cute!  I can’t wait for you guys to see how adorable it is when I post it here.

In other news, my school, AIU, resumed on the 7th.  I have two classes to take this month.  With everything I’m trying to do, it’s going to be hard to fit school in but it’s a must.  I’m going to hate this iiish but hey, it’s paid for and I can’t let all of that money go to waste like that.  Online schools are pretty expensive.  Convenient of course, but expensive.  I have four assignments due by Sunday at 12AM.  They give us a week to complete all assignments.  I love it and hate it at the same time lol.  Well back to work I go <3